Weak…

Can I be sad for a moment? Cry and bawl my eyes out? Can I swear at the heavens? Ask a question of why it has to be this hard. Can I stare at the world blankly, like I could just become invisible and discreet? So I can hide the pain.

Can I start pondering aimlessly? Run farther, scream my lungs out? Can I just fall on my knees? For once, can I be weak? Can I show just how sad I am becoming? Can I at least be someone who weeps with all her heart out into the open?

Can I show what it is like inside me? The chaos, the sorrow and the uncertain emotions I am now feeling? Can I scream? Tell them just how much I needed to pour myself out. Can I? Can I lay down, rest and just forget the world?

Can I? For one second….be the person that I am usually not. Weak.