Learning how to move on

Having to lose someone is the hardest, I lost my childhood bestfriend way back 2006. She was 18 and I was 19 at that time, It was difficult to absorb and I have been denying my self with the truth. And so….I went to her wake wanting to prove that the news about her passign was not true. I ended up shedding bucket of tears with my heart broken into bits and pieces. It was 2018 when I fully accepted that I lost her already, and back then I became distant to anyone that I refused to making or forging a deep bond with anyone for I fear that I migt lose them again without notice. However, 2018 have taught me to move on and let her go and after that she visited me in my dream smiling at me. Life is about moving on than of clinging onto something that have already been physically gone.